The Power of Surrendering to LOVE

What it Means to Surrender to the Energies of Love

This story is short, yet sweet!  I wish to share with you an experience I had while on vacation that has changed my life and every aspect within it!

My story with its own characters are no different than many, yet I have, through my own healing process, learned how to achieve something amazing!!  To rewrite it!

What do I mean by rewriting it?  It's simple really.  I reached a point in my life where continuing down the familiar path was no longer an option.  If things were going to truly change in my life, they had to change within ME First!!

While I was on vacation, I had the most enlightening experience. which had a tremendous impact upon my new found reality.  As I laid upon a hammock which we nestled amongst the tropical trees, I heard a message being whispered through the wind and carried to me through my brother and sister trees (ok, this may sound too "airey fairey" for some, but please continue reading there is a very important message here for everyone drawn to this page) that, at first, started me.

The message given to me was to Surrender all to the energies of Love.  Sure, I said with a giggle, can you please explain to me how I am supposed to do that!!  What followed was a classic example of Being Careful for what you Ask For... because the message which followed, is what changed my life!

Surrender all things to the Energies of Love.... Become in tune with your emotions, especiall the negative toxic ones.. And so I began.  I surrendered my fears of dying to Love, I surrendered my fears of not being good enough to Love, I surrendered guilt, betrayal, anger, and yes,,,even rage I didn't know I had, to Love... it was amazing... I just kept repeating the Mantra over and over again until I felt Light and Clear... It lasted several hours!

Yet, when i was finished, once I had released and surrendered ALL negative emotions, negative toxins to Love, I was completely surprised to see what followed next!!

Now, spoke my Brothers and Sisters of the trees, surrender all things positive to Love!  WHAT!!?? Are you crazy??  I remembered even saying it out loud...lol....but as I began saying.  I surrender the love I feel for my children, for my brothers and my sisters, for the tropical air, for the beauty of country where I was ... I began to feel such an overewhelming sense of Love beginning to wash over me, it was truly amazing.

This is when it happened... I surrendered the Love I have for my Self.. WOW!!  The love that began to pour over me, showering me with Divine Unconditional Love was amazing.

It has been almost 3 weeks later and I still feel the beauty of the Love within me. 

Was it the rhythm of the island?

Was it the loving embrace of the people who live on the island?

Was it the gentle nudge of my Higher Angelic Self?

Was it the Divine speaking directly to me?

Whatever it was, it has surely touched my heart and changed my life

If you feel that you, too, need to surrender to the energies of Love, I highly recommend you do so.  If you need assistance, please email me and we can talk about options.

Being IN a Relationship with Your Self

The Greatest Love of All is Self Love

How many times have they repeatedly said this to you?  "You have to learn to love your Self before you can ever, fully Love another?"  I know, I've heard it a thousand times.....but what exactly does that mean, "have to love your Self before you an fully love another?"

After careful contemplation and a great deal of time spent in meditation, I think I finally understand it! I think I finally get the whole concept of Loving Self First.  Our outer world is a reflection of what we are experiencing within our inner worlds.  Meaning, if we are happy on the inside with our Self, then our outward appearance and life's circumstances will reflect that inner glow, so to speak.  But, if we are Not, if we are not happy with the way we look on the outside or how things in our life are going, then we MUST turn inwards to explore the possibilities of promoting Inner Healing.

One of the most beautiful gifts I received yesterday was learning about how to BE in a relationship with Everything, Including your Self.  For me, it was like that magick wand touched my heart and I had one of those Ah-Ha Moments.

To BE in a relationship with my Self, I have to be IN a Relationship with ALL parts of my Self, even those things which i don't really care too much about, my flaws! 

Today., I embrace the beautifulness of Being in a relationship with everything about ME.  I will share more with you about how this journey goes as I move along the path of my own spiritual awakening and inner spiritual journey.



A Going Within

Several months have passed since my last post........I remember from all my many journal or diary entries where I had began many times before, that i began using those same words...  It seems that at times, it's easy to let the "business" of life get in the way of doing things that hold value and meaning.  Or, maybe it's the "newness" of changing things up, breaking the duldrums of the "same old, same old" routine.  But, maybe, just maybe, the very idea of creating this blog and really putting my Self out there, being raw, vulnerable, visible and exposed sparked the fear of being seen for me, which is why I closed down and went within.

Everyone is always asking me if I'm married or have a boyfriend.  When I tell them no and that I've been on my own for the past 10 years, you can almost hear them gasp.  As if they cannot believe that someone would Choose to be single!  Sometimes it makes me laugh and i'll through in the ole, "I've gotten so set in my own ways, that I probably don't have the patience or the desire to put up with someone else's bs!"  But truth be told, there ARE times where I do miss the company and companionship of another.  Then when I think of the fact that I am pushing 50, the thought of being alone somehow continues to loose it's appeal.  It's as if there is a tug of war going on within my head!

Why do I choose to be single?  Is it fear of falling in love or a fear of repeating the same story of having poor judgment?  Repeating the same old mistakes, those same old patterns seems to be my MO.  This is where my inner journey begins.  Since the age of 3 or 4 (I am not exactly sure at what age it began and no one in my family will discuss it) I became "Granpa's Lil Angel"  and my life was forever changed!  Looking back now, I know that it had set me up to continue to attract to my life the same abusive patterns, not realizing that I had a choice, that there were options as an adult where i could free my Self from the Victim Consciousness and move my Self into a state of Empowerment.

It wasn't until about 6 years ago when the last man I dated, had all the right external makings of the perfect mate, carried all the same inner traits I had known all too well...it sent me on a Journey, a Going Within if you will to discover how I could make this shift.  After along period of silence, I finally begin to understand that my lesson to learn in this lifetime is one of Love.  Not, the love you feel for others, that warm and cozy, toe curling emotions, but love for Self!

This becomes forgeign territory for me, walking around in unfamiliar surroundings.  This is the journey we will share together.  I intent to be fully open with you, sharing with you my pains and joys, my challenges, struggles and successes, my ups and downs and all things.. I intend to be completely vulnerable and transparent and by the time that we have completed our journey, I hope it is with the realization of Self Love!

Let the journey begin
ME